Don’t change

Don’t Change

I was talking to a friend on the phone as we walked into the “Ivie juice bar” in Orem. The lady behind the counter took our orders and I sat down to wait.
A lady walks out from the backroom to deliver a completed order to another sitting customer.
I got up once she returned with our order and engaged her in conversation. Something I wouldn’t have done in another life.
She laughed and noted that I cut off my friend in order to hand her my phone. She could see his picture on the screen. I said this was more important and he can always call me back. She appeared eager enough to give me her number. As she handed back my phone, my left hand which had been in my pocket up until that moment came out. Her eyes flashed very briefly at the hand and I saw her expression change ever so slightly.
I know that look and I know that smile that is a mixture of guilt and regret. May be it is 5% in my head, but I am certain it is 95% true.
I said I will call her as she walked away to which she nodded.
I sent a text the next day. No response.
I called two days after and let it ring until it went to voice mail. I didn’t leave any messages. There was no point.
You are different, you are special, why would you want to be normal when you were born to standout?
Don’t get me wrong, I subscribe to not being “normal”: be creative; be idiosyncratic; be colorful, be flowery; but be deformed (in any way) is not one of those normal you shouldn’t be. If I had the power, I would grow a normal hand with normal fingers. You would think at my age I would be used to it and sometimes I almost convince myself that I am, but events such as these are there to remind me that I am indeed different – not necessarily in a positive way.

Time proceeds without stopping and so must I – after all nothing is certain except death and taxes.

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Dual-Booting Mac OSX and Windows on MacBookPro

NOTE: Thanks to @TGIK on the thread who came up with the solution.

System: MackBook Pro (13-inch, Late 2011), Intel Core i5, 4GB RAM, Intel HD Graphics 3000, SuperDrive


  • Purpose of this guide: Due to poor EFI support on the earlier MACs (think 2012 and earlier?), when Windows is installed in EFI mode, the audio card does not work (EFI boot mode exposes devices in a different way, which effectively leads to audio not working). This guide uses registry DSDT override in Windows to enable the audio card without using any third party bootloader so your Mac OSX is more or less still vanilla 🙂
  • I first tried to install Windows with BootCamp but got the “GPT/MBR wont install” issue after EFIbooting the Windows 8.1 USB.
  • I then converted the Hybrid GPT/MBR partition scheme the BootCamp had created to GPT with protected MBR by:
    (1) disabling SIP – boot the MAC while holding down command+R to get to OSX Recovery, start Terminal from the Utilities menu, run “crsutil disable”, restart the MAC.
    (2) download gdisk and install gdisk ( ), determine your disk device name (e.g., from Disk Utilities), update the partition by running gdisk against the disk, selecting x for advanced, type n, then type w to write, Y to accept changes.
    sudo gdisk /dev/disk0
    x (ENTER key)
    n (ENTER key)
    w (ENTER key)
    Y (ENTER key)
    (3) run gdisk again and check the output that the partition scheme is now listed as GPT with protected MR; quit gdisk
    (4) You may want to re-enable SIP (boot while holding Command+R to get into OSX Recovery, start Terminal from the Utilities menu, run “crsutil enable”, restart the MAC.
  • I installed Windows from the prepared USB (press Option key when booting and select the EFIboot – it should have a USB icon). I chose to reformat the partition I had created in Mac OSX for Windows in the installation wizard.
  • In Windows, I installed the BootCamp Drivers (The BootCamp Assistant should have copied it to the USB for you, otherwise download them from the Apple website). This enables enabled WiFi and everything else but with no audio and the audio device in device manager had the error “This device cannot start. (Code 10)”
  • I then found @TGIK’s solution thread on Apple’s Support Forum after which I did the following to get the audio to work:
  1. Boot into Mac OSX and use MaciASL software to dump your DSDT in OSX :
    Install and run MaciASL. From the MaciASL menu chose the save as disassembled DSL option e.g., with filename DSDT (MaciASL will tag on extension DSL once you choose the right file type in the “save as” dialog box)
  2. Copy the DSDT.DSL to a USB or put it online (e.g., your email or google drive)
  3. Re-boot the MAC into Windows

The remaining steps are extracted from the guide:

4. Download and install the required tools:

  • Windows Binary Tools (WBT – Dec 2016) extracted to c:dsdt directory. [ ]
  • Windows Driver Kit (WDK), which contains the Windows ASL Compiler (asl.exe) [ ]
  • Notepad++ text editor
  • Copy WDK’s ASL compiler into the c:dsdt directory. Do this by opening Command Prompt (run as administrator) and then copy-and-paste the commands below: mkdir c:dsdt
    c: & cd dsdt
    set 64bit_OS_asl=”C:Program Files (x86)Windows Kits10Toolsx64ACPIVerifyasl.exe”
    set 32bit_OS_asl=”C:Program Files (x86)Windows Kits10Toolsx86ACPIVerifyasl.exe”
    copy /y %32bit_OS_asl% c:dsdt > nul & copy /y %64bit_OS_asl% c:dsdt > nul
    if not exist c:dsdtasl.exe echo ERROR: Failed to copy asl.exe to c:dsdt

5. Copy the DSDT.DSL into the c:dsdt folder

6. Edit the DSL as described and add the QWordMemory section (I used the “Intel method” as recommended in the guide). See (iii) under section “OPTION 1: Use the Intel method” i.e.:
… With Notepad++, open the resultant c:dsdtdsdt.dsl file and search for ResourceProducer. Beneath it will be a series of “DWordMemory” resource entries. Under the last DWordMemory entry in that area, typically above the _CRS method, add a ‘QWordMemory’ (64-bit) entry as shown in red below. …

(NOTE: the lines starting with “QWordMemory” to the line ending with ” TypeStatic)” are the lines introduced into the DSDT.DSL file)

DWordMemory (ResourceProducer, PosDecode, MinFixed, MaxFixed, Cacheable, ReadWrite,
   0x00000000,         // Granularity
   0x000A0000,         // Range Minimum
   0x000BFFFF,         // Range Maximum
   0x00000000,         // Translation Offset
   0x00020000,         // Length
   ,, , AddressRangeMemory, TypeStatic)
QWordMemory (ResourceProducer, PosDecode, MinFixed, MaxFixed, Cacheable, ReadWrite,
   0x0000000000000000, // Granularity
   0x0000000C20000000, // Range Minimum,  set it to 48.5GB
   0x0000000E0FFFFFFF, // Range Maximum,  set it to 56.25GB
   0x0000000000000000, // Translation Offset
   0x00000001F0000000, // Length calculated by Range Max - Range Min.
   ,, , AddressRangeMemory, TypeStatic)
   Method (_CRS, 0, Serialized)  // _CRS: Current Resource Settings

7. Create an updated dsdt.aml file from the update DSDT.DSL file (using the commands):
c: & cd dsdt
iasl -ve DSDT.DSL

Note: the iasl actually creates a file called iASLcnnPCo.aml. Just rename it to anything you want e.g., DSDT.AML

8. Load the updated/modified AML using registry DSDT override:
cd c:dsdt
asl /loadtable DSDT.aml
bcdedit -set TESTSIGNING ON

9. Reboot Windows and you should have audio working when it comes back up.
(I noticed two devices in the “Sound, video and game controllers” section in Device manager: “Cirrus Logic CS4206B(AB 28)” and “High Definition Audio Device” (with the error “This device cannot start. (Code 10)”).

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** If your MAC is equipped with a DVD drive (e.g., SuperDrive), you can avoid this long guide by installing Windows in legacy MBR boot mode. Write the Windows ISO to a DVD-R media (or if you have the Windows install DVD already even better). After creating a suitable partition for Windows within Mac OSX, just boot the MAC while holding the Option key, choose to boot from the DVD drive (not EFIboot !), and install Windows into the target partition. Install BootCamp Drivers within Windows and you are done! Everything should just work.

*The Windows USB can be created with unetbootbin, Rufus, or the Windows 7 USB/DVD creator tool.


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The Border Collie

Did you read about me?
Indestructible, or so I thought
Did you hear of me?
Inexhaustible, the tales I wrought

The open road is where I live
The wind in my face
A hard man with no give
Every stop is a new base

I used to wear full body armour
Over my Under Armour
The heat and the tight fit
My excuse for no extra kit

Left to my discretion
I ditched the protection
Forth, I sally
The law is my ally

Gas and oil and grease – my blend
Coming around the bend
The breaks didn’t save me
The road broke me

Doing sixty in a forty
Ahead of my party
It was a Border Collie
It ended my folly


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The Joshua Tree

Meet me at the Joshua tree
When the autumn is in full bloom
When you have been set free
In the dark of night – in the gloom

Meet me at the Joshua tree
The stars will be our witness
They did not flee
A light in the blackness

Meet me at the Joshua tree
In my dreams and yours
Beside the inland sea
Away from these shores

Meet me at the Joshua tree
But only if you are truly free

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Scorez I

Big guy: Hey bro. Where are you from?
Me: Nigeria. You?
BG: Guess
Me: Not sure but definitely Polynesian
BG: Samoa. What’s your name?
Me: A-Y. Yours?
BG: Tau
BG: Do you play rugby?
Me: No
BG: Why not?
Me: I am too small (he’s probably 6 5” with the rock solid “Polynesian build”)
BG: What are you reading? (He opens the book). I had my hand between the pages.
Brief pause. Uncomfortable silence
BG: Oh. Sorry I didn’t notice the hand.
Me: No probs at all
BG: What happened?
Me: That’s how I was born. Congenital.
BG: Ok. What do you drink?
Me: Anything
BG: Well have a beer and a shot on me!


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Meals on Wheels

Meals on Wheels

I decided to volunteer for Meals on Wheels (a government program that provides meals to home-bound senior citizens).
I would join the thousands of volunteers that on any given day deliver lunch to senior citizens all over the country. For me that would be delivering lunch to about 9 people every other Monday. The food is prepared with the help of inmates at a correctional facility, then shipped to some center where volunteers like myself pick them up (already packed in a heater for the meal and a cooler for the milk, fruits, etc). I will then drive to each house on a list (“route”) and drop off the food. Some of the recipients have instructions on what to drop off (some don’t receive milk or bread) and what to do at the house (go right in; knock and wait; there’s a dog but it is harmless; etc).

I didn’t expect it to be as exhausting as it turned out to be. My first drop off was at a managed apartment complex for senior citizens, spent some time looking for the right building before making it to the right floor then the right apartment.
My second drop off almost had me in tears – a very old stooped lady seated by herself in this quaint house. I knocked and went in. She asked me to put the food on a little table right in front of her – I really can’t tell exactly why I was emotional for a few minutes after I got back to my car – maybe a combination of remembering my father; the fact that ultimately we are all alone; and the lady’s condition.

The rest got better. I dropped off a couple of food packages in a house where the 86-year old lady was still as feisty as ever. When I handed the trays over to her, I asked if she could manage, to which she responded with a twinkle in her eyes: “Do you know how old I am? I am 86 years and I can still whoop the world’s arse!”

From typing in the wrong address in Google Maps, to hunting down house addresses, it was quite interesting.

I did go to the house with the dog. It was this very tiny Chihuahua which was very aggressive – but like that meme that goes “Not all Australian animals will kill you. Don’t get me wrong … he wants to. He just can’t” – the dog’s size made it hilarious – but that level of aggression would have made it very dangerous if it wasn’t “size-challenged”. I knocked on the door, and a young boy opened it and I handed over the food. Almost immediately the dog went on a barking and growling spree which was loud enough to get the attention of the next door neighbors. The boy tried to call it to heel but it would have none of it. It followed me out with the boy in tow. Every few steps I took it would charge at my feet but stop just short of actually nipping at my trouser legs.

By the time I was done 1.5 hours later, I was exhausted. I got back to the senior center where I had picked up the packages from to return the heater and cooler.
I could see it was basically run by other senior citizens who were packing the food and so on. The old lady that attended to me earlier asked how it went and I told her a little difficult but since it was my first time, to be expected. An old gentleman that also worked there said “Thank you for doing this.”

Note: they have chapters all over the country if you are interested in volunteering.

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Near-death is not a valid source of after-life facts

A disjointed argument against near-death experience as a source of facts about the after-life (for want of a better title)

So some people who have died medically and been resuscitated claim there is nothing after death.
“We” agree that they died medically, but the fact that they are “here” to tell about it means they did not die finally.
And if they did not die finally, how can we then be sure of where they were during that period when to all intents and purposes they were dead?
People who have a concussion or lose consciousness may wake up and not remember a thing. We do not know where their minds or souls were during that period. We have come up with all sorts of explanation – purgatory; some tunnel with a light at the end; etc. But it is all just conjecture.
I understand when people are “put under” (general anesthesia) some have a near-death experience.
I had mine. I was in some sort of a really small box, that was in a box, within a box, to no end. The boxes were shiny and dark at the same time. How I came to know the boxes were stacked like a Matryoshka doll I could not tell for sure. But it was as if I was trapped inside but able to see the whole thing from outside at the same time. But no matter how hard I struggled I could not get out.
There was some sort of very regular booming sound, like a thunder clap. At some point I gave up struggling, I thought maybe this was hell and I was dead and my sins had found me out. I thought this was no way to spend eternity. I despaired. But then I woke up once the anesthetics wore off.
Now some people will say those who medically died and got resuscitated is the closest thing we have to dying fully. That is all fine and good. But being close is not the same as being exact or the real thing. Death is final. From my limited recollection of calculus math, no one knows what the biggest number is or we accept it is infinite or infinitely big.
For all intent and purposes, we say “sufficiently big” is an approximation of infinity. But who knows what would happen if we could indeed discover that biggest number? Would our minds implode? If we could build a computer that could handle it, would the computer become self-aware – a sentient being? Or since only God is truly infinite, would such a number be the number of God? If our mind could grasp it, would we achieve enlightenment and be as God or gods?
Again, all these is just conjecture. People who “died” and “returned” cannot be our source of truth about life after death. Obviously as a believer myself, this excludes Jesus.

5/27/2019 (1:44AM)

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